First of 15/12/2018 at 01:19 am

Hi laddu,
Baby aaj pta h
Mujhe acha ni lg rha...
bilkul acha ni lg rha..
aise feel ho rha h jaise tu mujhse dur ho gai..
pta nhi kyo
bs bura lg rha h.....
nhi krna chahta baby m tujhe dur
even you are my everything baby
bt fir bhi
pta nhi kyo....
or laddu you know
tujhse bat krta hu na
to meri sari tension to vaise hi finish ho jati h..
bs tu gusse me phone kat deti h to bat alag h
bt normally tu bhot achi h
gusse me to dangerous ho jati h
stupid
or sun darling
abse achi to apni 25 november se pahle ki life hi thi..
kitni achi thi life us time..
us time rona bhi almost roj aata tha..
kitna acha lgta tha
pta h jis din tune bike pr beth kr video call ki
jb mene tujhe galiya di thi
usi time ajay ka phone aaya..
m buri tarah vibrate kr rha tha or buri tarah se ro rha tha..
ajay ke sath bat bhi nhi ho rhi thi..
buri tarah se
aaj tk life me kbhi aisa nhi hua jaisa us din hua jb vibration ke sath itna rona aaya ho..
vibration gusse ki vajah se tha or aansu isliye ki tu meri thi..
ajay bs yahi bolta rha ki chup hoja m bat krta hu.. please chup hoja
or pta h
bhot jyada acha lgta tha mujhe us time..
bhot acha..
kyo btaya yar tune mujhe shadi ka..
chalne deti usi tarah
kitni achi life thi..
m hr mandir me tujhe mangta tha..
tere liye jo books mngai thi The Secret or dusri The Magic...aaj tk vo ni padhi....... socha tha teri shadi ke bad padhunga...
yad h vo ek bar rat ke 3 bje mera neendo me tujhe call??
hr jagah m tujhe dekhta tha laddu..
bar room me beth kr tera video call krna
vo yello jaisi dress pahan na
pta h mene tere mangal sutra ko bhi tune bola vesa hi maan liya tha..
mere mind ko doubt hmeshaa hota tha or m teri purani sari photos se compare krta tha but sochta ki tu bol rhi h to sach hi hoga..papa ne diya hoga
or jb bhi tu uska naam leti na
to jese mere dil ke tukde ho jate the..
yad h ek bar tune bola
ki m or vo jb sath chlte h to sbhi bolte h ki perfect jodi h
hdd se jyada bura lga mujhe us time...
bhot bhot bhot jyada bura lgta tha jaan
bhot rota tha m jb tu usko mujhse perfect btati thi
jb bhi tu bolti ki vo bimari ka nhi bolta mujhe kuchh nhi bolta to bhot bura lgta.......

laddu
hr ek angle pr jhuth bola tune
meri feelings ke sath bhot buri tarah kheli tu..
tujhe ye starting se pta tha ki m ek innocent insan hu
dhokha nhi de skta fir bhi tune mere sath meri feelings ke sath khhilvad kiya..
maine to maaf kr diya
bt bhagwan sb count krta h
fir bhi I pray and request you God
is laddu ke acts ki punishment mujhe de dena..
ye to advocate bn gai to smjhti h ki koi frk nhi pdta is se..
bt everyone knows well that As you bow, Shall you reap
bt  koi na
m to real lover hu
or mujhe jitna love kiya uske liye thanks
m kisi ke kam aa sku is se acha mere liye kya hoga chahe vo kisi ka entertainment krna ho ya fir khilona..

bhot bura lg rha h mujhe aaj
even maine 2 bar apna face saaf kr liya..
I know ab tujhe ya to gussa aa rha hoga ya fir bura lg rha hoga but jo sach tha vo bta diya maine..
bhot buri tarah rulaya h tune mere dil ko
you hurted me very very very very much hardly
Bhagwan tere mind ko acha or neat and clean bnaye..
God bless you
I am always yours
Take care
aaj bhi utna hi pyar krta hu jitna  20 july 2018 ko krta tha..
love you darling